Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Goodbyes

Well, today probably marks one of the hardest goodbyes of my life
okay, the hardest
today I said goodbye to my sweet brother
who is probably already sleeping by now...
his first night in the Provo MTC...
where he will stay for 13 days before flying across the country to Richmond Virginia
Where he will serve for 24 months...


I will be honest
 it's kind of a relief to have that taken care of...
I have been dreading this day for a month
seriously dreading it for about two weeks
and in complete denial all this week
Don't get me wrong today ripped my heart right out of my chest
but I am glad it's over.
I know I am going to be extremely lonely for him these next two years
Tatey has been my best friend all my life
and I automatically flashback to sitting on his bed for hours a countless number of nights
laughing, crying, playing tetris...
so to say I am going to miss him is an understatement
but I really feel like it is going to be easier
rather that imagining, it's actually happening
and it's a downward slop
now I can say he'll be home in 730 days :)


This week has been really special though
we were all able to spend quite a bit of time together as a family
Jack and I slept over Saturday night
spent the entire day Sunday with him
And then all of yesterday we got to spend together
You want to talk about a few miracles?
Yesterday 3 of my 5 classes were canceled..
when does that ever happen??
So I went to the early class and played hooky during the last one
we got to spend the entire afternoon together
We got to go on one last special temple date 
and ate too much at his favorite place
Cheesecake Factory :)

I have been really blessed
I have been able to feel my Father in Heaven's love many times
that burning feeling?
it's real
but last night...
you couldn't help but cry because of the warmth and love that was in that room
I have known all along Nate was meant to serve
I have been so incredibly proud of him for deciding to go completely on his own
but I hadn't felt peace until last night...
I have been anxious, and worrying, and praying he wouldn't get lonely, or sick, or have anything else sad happen to him while away 
I won't go too in depth but last night was a true manifestation of what an incredible brother I have.
and I know he's going to be okay :)


I know he's going to have some rough times
and that kills me a little
but I also know he is going to be a phenomenal missionary
anyone who knows Tatey knows he's a natural born leader
he is dedicated
when he sets his mind to something he not only wants to be good at it, he wants to be great
he puts forth his best effort in all he does
He and I have gone through a lot of incredibly spiritual experiences together
our papa's baptism, our cousin passing away, our family being sealed
we have talked a million times about how lucky we are to have an eternal family
and now he gets to go share that with others
I know without a doubt his sweet spirit is going to touch so many people in Richmond
He is definitely meant to be going there
So saying goodbyes are hard
but when you put it into perspective
it's not going to be that bad


xoxo,

Ashlie




Thursday, November 13, 2014

Feeling Funky

My sweet brother leaves on his mission Wednesday....
Wednesday.
5 days.
5 DAYS you guys..
needless to say
I have been extremely emotional.
It's horrible.
really horrible
Tatey and I have been best friends ever since the little guy was born.
We were both kind of homebodies
I can't help that I love my cute little family so much I never wanted to leave!


I think about him and go visualize him sitting in his favorite little electric swing 
every time the swing would come forward I would say "awwww boooo!"
and he'd giggle like crazy 
seriously he just loved it!


now I look at him reading his scriptures, writing his farewell talk, buying new suits..
I can't help but miss him desperately 
and he hasn't even left yet :'(
so bare with me for slacking and hardly ever posting lately
I just haven't been myself this past week...
feeling rather funky
wanting to flash back (as long as jack can come) to being a little kid 
playing silly games, dumping mac and cheese on each others heads


 I really am so proud of him
sooooooooo proud
he's grown up into such an impressive little guy and he has soooo much ahead of him
he'll always be my bestie 
and he knows.... he's going to be getting a LOT of packages from this girl


Praying to keep it together just a few more days!
Richmond Virginia is too too lucky :)

xoxo,

Ashlie 



Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Lately

I know, I know
I have been m.i.a. lately...
I have been working lots, lots, lots

I started at Fox about 2 weeks ago!
I realized I really took having time after class for granted...
I used to finish all my homework so early and now I really have to prioritize my time to get everything done
which is totally fine
I'm just still getting used to it

so I am an associate producer
basically what that means is I write content for the 4 o'clock, 5 o'clock and 9 o'clock news
My top priority is the 9 so most of the segments that aren't done by reporters I have written!
let's be honest, it can be pretty stressful
I really love my school, but it has taught me absolutely nothing to be prepared for this
The first week was extremely emotionally trying on me
I thought I was more prepared than I actually was
so I had zero confidence
My second day I was expected to write like 20 segments.
I worked so hard, googled like a thousand terms I had never heard in my life and when I finished
everything I wrote was torn apart or just completely changed 
so that was hard...
but I was the new girl, being the new girl is hard

It's true when they say
we definitely are our own toughest critics!
so let's all try taking it easy on ourselves this week


I came into work last Wednesday and my boss Marc asked me to step into his office
My heart sunk
I literally thought he was going to fire me
So I walk in and sit down... He shuts the door and says
"so a lot of people have been coming into my office to talk to me about you...."
At this point I'm thinking, oh my gosh... please don't cry... please don't cry!
He continued to say, "and I just wanted to tell you how grateful we are to have you here. Thanks for all your hard work!"
I couldn't even get excited
I literally left his office, went to the bathroom, and got those tears out I had been holding in haha
Like I said these few weeks have been emotionally trying on me
I have never worked so hard in my life
and have never wanted to succeed more in my life

I got to end the week in an exciting way
my friend Lorna and I got to anchor the KUED news
It was so great to be behind the camera and feel the adrenaline rush that gives me
 It seriously helped me to remember what it is I am working towards
So guys, keep your head up! It'll all be worth it in the end :)


Love, Love, Love
Oh and don't forget to go vote!

Xoxo,

Ashlie