Wednesday, December 10, 2014

It's Official!

Well guys big news!!!
The Borens


are MOVING!
yep 
after months of filling out applications and decision making
we have officially accepted an offer in.....
drum roll!!!!!!!



San Jose!!!!!
wooooooo wooooooo woooooo

My sweet hubs was offered this amazing position with Cisco
in their mergers and acquisitions department
or treasury
he's still deciding..
which is a pretty big deal 
so we are relocating out little family to Cali-Fornia
We are leaving sometime after the Spring semester ends
His official start date isn't until the second Monday in June 
so we have plenty of time to figure all the little details out :)
Just don't tell anyone at FOX because I will not be informing them for a few more months..

Even though we are going to be packing up the chateau in 5 months I don't care
I'm still decorating
I am soo proud of myself because I just completed my first big project
ALL BY MYSELF
Jack had a business trip this week so I had the evening to hammer away
Don't judge because I just ordered the pictures to fill the frames :)
my momma and I have big plans for expansion...
but I am only allowed to hammer 10 holes in the wall or we loose our deposit....
so my collection will have to build after we move


We've have had lots fun projects
Christmas is definitely the best time for projects if you ask me!
Jack's mom went to this Christmas tree auction last month
basically Boise's equivalent to The Festival of Trees
so all the money raised on the trees go to the children's hospital
and she bought us the beauty!
It was seriously the sweetest surprise
One day Jack and I were talking about buying a tree
and the next this shows up all wrapped up :)





In other news... Tatey is doing absolutely wonderfully :)
his companion seems really sweet
Nate said he really pushes him
He is serving on this college campus right now
I guess one day (like his second day in the field) they went to this fountain in the center of campus
Porter (his comp) went on one side and Nate went on the other
they then stopped every person who walked by and would try to give a brief overview of the gospel
bare their testimony, and invite them to hear the discussions
They were also handing out cards to watch the video
(if you haven't seen it, it is really short and really well done
definitely worth watching) 
I couldn't imagine doing what he's doing right now!
Seriously imagine making yourself so vulnerable sharing the topic dearest to your heart at a college campus nonetheless...  
needless to say, I am so proud of him



Love you all :)
Merry Christmas!! 

xoxo,

Ash

Friday, December 5, 2014

Hey, it's OKAY!!

Anyone who knows me knows...
I am a planner
a serious one
at least when it comes to my life paln
sometimes it's a good thing
but sometimes it really causes me to beat myself up
a lot....
because you know... some things don't go as planned

I have been a producer at Fox for about 9 weeks now
after my wonderful summer internship with Studio 5 
my "plan" was to get a job in production
gain some experience
 go back to KSL
stay with KSL until Studio 5 has an opening 
(there are literally 3 employees for the show)
and then love Studio 5 until I wanted something different
it sounded like a pretty solid 10 year plan....
but you guys.....
I need to be honest about something
I HATE this.....
I really do.... 
I don't hate many things but....
I just cannot be myself here
I don't live and breath news  like everyone else here
Don't get me wrong, staying up to date is important! 
reading CNN every morning has become something I will continue to do forever.
There are millions of interesting people doing interesting things in this world
everyone has a story to tell
but I don't care about knowing every last house that caught on fire this week
or every single accident on the freeway...
I just don't
I'm sad for the families that these things happen to
trust me one time I cried about these three dogs that died in a house fire...
but I just don't want to know some things..
trust me when I say
it has taken weeks of anxiety and crying my eyes out as I drive home from work to realize this....
since day one I felt like I was trying to be someone I'm not...

My entire life I have been "the fashion girl"
I never wore sweats to junior high
then I was voted best dressed in high school
and I went to fashion school
then I became "the nordy girl"
I lived and breathed Nordys for 2 years
and if I am honest with myself....
I loved every second of it.....
I loved the clothes, the people, the customers, everything
But for some reason I couldn't accept this about myself
There are a lot of stigmas that come with working in the fashion industry
a LOT
and I felt like I was always trying to prove myself
that I cared about more than just shoes
but I thrived at Nordys... it just came naturally.... 
but for some reason I always had to explain why I there
the people I loved most never made me feel this way
they always said how proud they were
and only a few people would explicitly say things
but you know how it is....
I was talking about my 10 year plan
and when you talk about your 10 year plan
you have to be confident in it....
and yourself..
and I was terrified of the plateau...

but now as I sit here at my desk
writing about what is considered to be "important"
I have realized something...

Passion really is what fuels life.
You hear people say nonstop "follow your dreams, follow your dreams"
but for some people knowing
and I mean KNOWING that
I know.. 
without a doubt in my mind 
this is my calling in life
I am giving this all I've got
"dream" 
IS HARD TO FIGURE OUT
and you know what?
that's OKAY!

I have learned SOOOOOO much working my butt off to get into this industry
and what if I wouldn't have done this???
I would have never learned 
I could have been working my way up Nordy's wondering, "is this my calling?"
Do I care too much that Alexander Wang's SS2015 collection is UHHmazzz?

but you know what???

Alexander Wang's SS2015 collection IS UHHmazz!!!
and who the flip cares that those rose gold booties cost 900 dollars... they are beautiful
and I can wear those booties I saved for a year to buy
while pouring soup at the homeless shelter
or teaching kids how to read
just because I love fashion  doesn't mean I'm a shallow person
I love people
with all my heart
but I also know...
I am not following my passion right now
I just don't fit in here
and I'm glad I am realizing this now

Thanks for the vent :)

xoxo,

Ashlie